Ruslan Ivanov's Room

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Ruslan's room.

Yami snuggled Rus in his sleep, "Mm... Ruu-chan..." he said softly. He woke up and smiled, staying quiet so he could stay that close for a little longer.

"Morning Yami." He chuckled and nuzzled him back not letting him go. "How'd you sleep?"

He smiled and looked up at Rus happily, "Very well. I dreamt of you actually." he chuckled softly, "How did you sleep?"

"I slept well, you were really warm." He snuggled him and kissed his lips lightly. "And what exactly did you dream about us?"

He kissed Rus back with a small smiled and a faint blush from the question, "Well... it was kinda of...." 'Would he go for it if I offered to show him...? heh... maybe not. I'll try a normal approach later, I guess.' he paused, "Well... it was kinda dirty to be honest..." he glanced away.

Ruslan chuckled, a tint of pink on his cheeks from surprise. "Really? How so? what exactly dirty things did you dream up about me?"

He blushed a little more, "W-well... it was mostly just you touching me... I'm surprised my condition didn't change because of that dream..." he sighed and nuzzled Rus, "But that may have been awkward if it had."

"It would be okay. You don't have to be embarrassed, its natural." He chuckled and patted his hair and kissed him happily.

He smiled, "Yes... but then I'd probably ask you to help me..." he said softly, looking at Rus curiously, "Um... if I asked... would you help me...?"

He smiled and kissed him gently. "I'm guessing you'd like to relieve a little tension?" 'At least... I think I can go through with this... yeah... definitely...'

He smiled a little and nodded shyly, "Um.. yeah... if you're alright helping me that is..." he said, a little embarrassed.

(still gotta be careful, not SA or TA XD)

He nodded slowly still a little unsure and climbed on top of him. "Of course I'll help you out." 'How different could it be? Its' just like a girl's body almost isn't?' He began to peal off Yami's shirt and caught himself frowning at his falt chest. 'His skin is soft and smooth, but he's more boney they a girl...'

(Nah it's fine, we can be careful but we know they're not gonna end up doing anything.)

He looked worried by Rus' frown, "What is it...? You're frowning..." he said quietly. 'Does he not want to...? I guess I should give him more time...' he thought, "We can stop if you're not ready..."

"N-no Yami, its fine," He leaned down capturing his mouth and kissing him, his hand roaming Yami's flat chest. He rested his hips on Yami's but frowned at the different feel.

He still felt worried but he returned the kiss, shivering a little at the feel of Rus' hands and hips.

He kissed Yami for a moment then suddenly pulled away from him. 'Definitely NOT a girl...' He sighed as he sat clear on the other side of the bed from Yami. He didn't dare look or speak to him.

He looked hurt when Rus wouldn't look at him. He sat up and fixed his shirt, looking down, sad and slightly angry. "So it really does bother you.... that I'm a guy, I mean...?" 'I shouldn't have started fooling myself... thinking a guy like him would love me physically as well...' he felt like crying as he thought this, but no tears came to his eyes.

"I'm sorry, Yami, I really am," he kept his eyes on the ground speaking in a quiet voice. "I don't think I could go through with this... I don't think I'm that... attracted to you. But I do love you Yami! Really..."

He chuckled pathetically, "But you'd love me more as a girl, right?" he almost whispered. he shook his head and stood from the bed, going to leave, "Forget it... I shouldn't have got my hopes up..." he said sadly, with a shadow of anger. He fixed his clothing and headed towards the door, "I'm going to the park... they're having an amateurs contest there that I think I'm going to enter now. I don't need breakfast." he said in an almost hollow voice as he got his shoes on.

He flinched at how true Yami's words were. He looked up to him with wide desperate eyes. "No! Yami please don't leave... I want you to stay..."

He didn't turn to look at Rus as he replied, "I wont be gone forever, I'll come back after." he went to open the door, "You wanted me to sing more, and you like hearing me sing, right? So just come watch or something." he opened the door and sighed sadly as he began walking out, "If emotion plays a main role in singing... then I guess I should do well in this contest."

Ruslan sighed watching him leave. "Yami..." 'I didn't mean to hurt him but... its not my fault that I'm not ready for THAT yet.' He rubbed his the bridge of his nose and got up to put clothes on, he then put on shoes and left heading to the park.